"my conversation with God"

its been a long time since i am visiting this place of mine but practically everything is changed.
I am almost recovered from the injuries. The accident has changed my entire world earlier i was a careless and free and there was the scarlet stone shining in my life and now that stone is a shiny star in the sky above.
but the shine she gave to my life is still there and i thank you Lord for giving me life and i Pray to you to keep my scarlet stone safe in your hands which i failed to do.
God i want to ask you a lot of question hope we will have a interesting session when we will meet i sometimes feel as if you are my enemy but i have a strong belief in you but its very strange if you are in my heart than how can you hurt me, if you are in my mind why do i think evil , if you are in me than who am i , if you can see me why cant i, if you are with me than why do i suffer , if you are here than is this heaven, ........

God this session will be continued the day i see you....

God keep my baby happy as i failed to do that and please forgive me .

God you are merciful , god you are divine and pure i raise my hand to you hold me and lift me high away from this evil wicked world full of selfish people .......